This last week my planner was full. I'm happy that I had so much to do. I love being busy. But for some reason I was experiencing a lot of anxiety. Tuesday and Friday night I simply stayed in to give myself a break.
Possible Causes for Anxiety
a) I had to go to the doctor to get a TB test.
I know as a fact I do not have tuberculosis because I am, in fact, NOT a 19th century french prostitute...it's just for record purposes. I grew up in a small town and never had to go to a doctor because my doctor went to my church and I would just see him on Sunday and be like oh hey Dr. Marcus... "my throat hurts" or "what is this bug bite" etc etc.
So going to a stranger (always hairy and usually with a foreign accent) and waiting 2.5 hours in a room full of strangers is not my ideal fun time.
b) My cousin's baby shower.
My extended relatives have yet to master the art of how to have a pleasant, enjoyable conversation. They especially don't understand the entertainment industry or what it's like trying to start a career as an actor. They ask when I'm going to get a real job. They ask why I am not booking work regularly. They ask how much money I make when I book work. They ask why don't I just send my resume to the Studios. They tell me I should join a Christian community theatre that does morally upright plays. They complain about how they can't find white gardeners or decent pool cleaners. And then they lecture me about how Obamacare is going to ruin this country... not that I bring it up.
At least they have given up on asking me about my dating life (or lack there of).
They know there is no hope there.
c) Saturday night my street was on lock-down for 2 hours because there was a CRIMINAL running around.
Cop cars everywhere. TWO helicopters. TWO!!! One of the helicopters YELLED at me and told me to go back inside.
Have you ever been yelled at by a helicopter??
It's super intense.
d) The Looming Cloud that is the holidays.
Traveling.
Airports.
Planning.
Logistics.
Answering the afore mentioned questions over and OVER AND OVER.
e) The pressure I am putting on myself to succeed at getting fit and the fear of falling short.
LAST WEEK'S CHALLENGES
Speaking of which. I GAINED WEIGHT this week. When I originally stepped on the scale it said 140 and I almost fainted. I tried putting the scale on the tile floor instead of our wonky bathroom linoleum. The tile floor said 135 so I settled for that. I told myself not to worry because it was just water weight and it would drop off in a few days and everything would be back on track. Whether that is true or not - is another story. Did I eat like 15 cheeseburgers in my sleep??? I just needed an excuse to not freak out over a number. However, this week was definitely challenging. I did have a couple of sodas and went a little overboard with trail mix on Thursday. Also, I didn't eat a proper breakfast before my workout Friday and ran out of steam half way through.
HOW I PLAN ON IMPROVING
On my little workout planner, I currently only have listed my workouts and weekly weight goals. Now that I am down to the wire with this fitness program, I think I could benefit from having a daily goal or theme to help me focus. So I will be writing those in as I fill out this week's workouts.
FOOD JOURNAL
Sunday 10/20
8am
2 pills with water
8:30
Chai tea w/ almond milk
Mini Croissant
(technically, I shouldn't have my celebratory mini croissant but that is my choice "cheat" treat)
12:30
2 pills with water
1pm
Luna Bar
25 oz. Sparkling Water
3pm
4.5 oz seared ahí
Kale & spinach salad w/ balsamic vinegarette
water
4:30
water
handful of almonds
5:30 Accidental nap!
9pm
2 pills with water
9:30
3.5 oz. grilled chicken
1 cup of peas
25 oz. sparkling water
Saturday 10/19
2 pills with water 10:30am
11am almonds
12pm
Guac & flax seed chips
12:30 2 pills with water
1 pm Chicken salad
Resisted cupcakes and brownies! SCORE
5pm 2 pills with water
5:30 pm
grilled chicken & baked squash SO GOOD
Snack
1 oz. hummus
1 thing of pita
Party: 1 celery stick and a 12 oz. coke
Resisted booze and baked treats. SCORE!
Here is a picture of my costume with my friend Stacy. She was Workout Barbie. She actually was one of my inspirations to get fit. This girl is so bubbly and funny but can really do anything she puts her mind to! This year she is just taking everything to the next level! Great job, traveled Europe, awesome boyfriend, got fit, new agent ...the list goes on! Such a great lady! And she looks amazing!
Friday 10/18
2 pills with water
1 cup of greek yogurt w/ raspberries and granola
THEN I had the bright idea to try and work out about 2 hours later
The Work Out
4 sets 15 reps
Incline Chest Press 30lb
Dumbell squat (20 reps) 12lb
Tricep 30 lbs
Seated Cable Row 50lb
Straight leg Deadlift 30lb
Treadmill 5 min
Ran out of energy because I did not eat enough. Lesson learned.
Post workout muscle milk
2 pills with water
3.5 oz grilled chicken
baked squash
#nomz